What Terrifies Me
Last week I made my first blog post. I have been so self-conscious about it ever since. This new blogging journey is so exciting but I am terrified. Why? I am afraid of failure, afraid of not saying the right thing, afraid of being myself. I have been an avid reader of the blog Smart Twenties for a few months now and there has been one thing Sam talks about that really resonates with me as I start my own blogging journey. Struggling with the imposter syndrome. After I wrote my first post I had so many thoughts going through my head. Will anyone read this? Who am I to give advice on this topic? Are people going to laugh at this? The truth is, whether any of that was true, I had published the post, it was done.
Despite being terrified of all of those things I plastered the announcement of my newest blog post all over my social media accounts. This was the first step in doing something I felt really passionate about. As cliche as it is to say, you really can do anything if you are passionate enough about it. Feeling proud of myself is something that motivates me everyday. There are a few things I have accomplished in my life where I was genuinely proud of myself, those are the moments I live for.
Being Passionate Moves Us Forward
For the past year or so I have battled with what I am passionate about. I have started many projects and have struggled with finishing any of them. Now I see that it’s because I wasn’t passionate about them. At first, I was passionate about all of the projects that I started, but slowly and surely I lost interest. Usually, I lose interest because I get excited about the next project and start that one before finishing the one I am currently working on. This is a habit I have repeated over and over again, a habit that I am not proud of.
I’m not going to lie, when I decided to start this blog I failed to finish a project that I was already working on, but this seemed so much more important to me. When I started reading blogs and seeing that people do this for a living I became obsessed with the idea. I still have a very long way to go to be able to do this full-time but I want to make myself proud. This is one venture I do not want to give up on.
Blogging is something I have become passionate about and I hope it is something I will continue to be passionate about for years to come. Giving up on something that I genuinely enjoy will only bring feelings of regret. I know if I continue this journey I will be proud of myself, and I am the person I want to make most proud.
Nothing worth having is ever easy. The older I get the truer this statement becomes. If you have a fear of failure, the pride you feel when you overcome that fear will undoubtedly be worth all of the nervousness and anxiety you experience before doing it. Prove yourself wrong every day. Make bold choices and live the life you’ve always dreamed of.
Love and light.